I received no such notification. Thinking that no news was good news, or just because I was afraid to know, I delayed checking their website. I went on their website today and discovered I didn't make the cut.
I had no illusions about my chances for this contest, not after I re-read my entry after sending it off and discovering a couple of typos I had missed, and definitely not after taking a couple of writing classes and realizing other--bigger--errors in judgment. It was no surprise I didn't final. I wasn't even that disappointed. I took my shot. It missed. This time.
My husband, the good man that he is, tried to console me. I kept telling him I wasn't upset, and I wasn't bummed. I hadn't gotten my hopes up, and I hadn't delluded myself about my chances. Nerve-wracking as it was, entering the contest pushed me out of my protective shell. It forced me to expand. I needed that experience to prove to myself that yes, I am an author, and yes, this is what I have to do to be published: I have to put myself out there, put my work out there, and be judged. In a broad sense, even though this attempt failed, it succeeded in other aspects because I entered a contest, I broke my shell. At that point, success or failure doesn't matter. Others, not just my test readers and critique partners, have seen my work. Total strangers. So it didn't win. They saw it anyway. Cat's outa the bag now.
This attempt has reinforced my resolve. I didn't make the cut this time because I made rookie mistakes. I won't make those mistakes next time. And yes, there will be a next time. Many next times.
- Mood:resolute
The time for spring cleaning somehow passed me by. I find it now summer, and my house is just as cluttered as it was last year. The kipple keeps accumulating. Time for another purge on the closets. And I need to deep clean my kitchen, cupboards especially. And the flowerbeds need some attention.
*sigh*....where is my clone and/or spare energy pack when I need them?
- Mood:
exhausted
It's embarrassingly true. I do like villains. The more sinister, awful, and evil, the more I clap my hands like an excited child. Why? Let me explain.
Having a believable hero, a sympathetic hero, a hero who makes audience cheer is necessary. The audience should want to know more about the hero and celebrate the hero’s triumph. Heroes have to be real, they can’t be perfect. In other words, they must have a flaw to be overcome so the end triumph is complete. The audience will laud the overcoming of that flaw.
But the villain makes or breaks the hero. Why? Because without a villain, the hero sits around the house, unemployed, watching daytime television, and eating bon-bons. The villain creates the situation for the hero's battle. The villain exposes the heroic flaw. The villain gives the hero drive, purpose, a reason for pushing him/her/it self to the limits and beyond.
That said, what do I like most in villains? What makes me giggle with maniacal glee? Let's talk traits and execution, motivation and development. I'll demonstrate.
Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs: The queen, a woman with an obsession for being young, beautiful, and THE BEST is driven to, among other crimes, conspiracy to commit murder, performance of black magic, and assault with a deadly apple with intent to kill. Without her drive to be the fairest in the land, that all consuming NEED, her stepdaughter, Snow White, would never have found herself in the crosshairs. Snow White would have never found comfort among the dwarfs, and the Prince would have just been another suitor, not a hero charging in on a figurative (or not) white horse to save the day. No queen, no obsession, no story.
In the above example, you have the following traits: physical beauty, intelligence, pride, power of position and responsibility, appearance of youth, ambition, leadership qualities, and semblance of self-confidence. In and of themselves, these traits are harmless. However, let's add some modifiers and a few other traits: overweening, excessive, coldhearted, conceit, jealousy, obsessive-compulsive behavior, and nebulous morality.
NOTE: most of the traits, good or bad, are not physical.
Execution of the above traits relies heavily on the motivation and development of the villain.
In her past, the queen was exquisitely beautiful. That beauty gave her renown, which in turn gave her pride and ambition to marry well. She had the intelligence to exploit her beauty, and a male's susceptibility to it. She captured the heart of a king. Good for her. Since she is the most beautiful in the land, she can afford to be generous to those less fortunate. She is jealous of her hard-won position.
She believes the only way to keep her position--both in the monarchy, and in everyone's regard--is by retaining her youthful beauty. As she ages, she relies more heavily on magic (or a really good cold cream) to maintain her looks. Time and the elements are not her friends. As she ages further, she becomes more desperate.
Enter Snow White, who has a mother's-dying-wish good looks, and a gentle demeanor to match. The queen is indulgent at first, but as Snow White matures, so does her beauty. Too soon, the queen has a challenger who has nothing but time and good breeding on her side. Cold creams can't take up the slack.
The queen doesn't let little things like ethics or morality stand in her way--it's only her stepdaughter after all, not a blood relative or her own daughter--and so resorts to more conventional means of taking out her competition: she orders a hit on her rival.
When the assassin is beguiled by Snow White, the queen takes matters into her own hands and employs magic. She's smart: she figures out ways to use Snow White’s naiveté against her, as well as defeat Snow White's other protections, the dwarfs. The queen goes the extra mile to make sure she does it right. Snow White's protectors are forced to take a more active role, even as each thwarted attempt drives the queen to more heinous acts of aggression.
NOTE: This descent down the path of evil is driven by the queen's obsession. She doesn't see it. She only sees the prize of being the fairest in the land. As her obsession grows, her other more admirable traits are twisted or eclipsed.
Let’s get back to those traits. The queen exhibits most of the traits I like in my villains: physical beauty that hides the viper underneath. Intelligence, because a stupid villain is not appealing. Darkness of soul. Willpower. Cunning. Presence. Pois
Silence of the Lambs: the villain of the book is supposed to be the serial killer on the loose. The serial killer is interesting, but Hannibal Lector snares our attention from the moment we see him. Why?
However aberrant it is, Lector follows his own morality, his own rules, his own code of conduct with no apologies and no excuses. Soft-spoken, Lector possesses genius-level intelligence, piercing perception, cunning, education, evident gentility (aka, poise), humor, and a ton of backstory, both spoken and non. He is also a cannibal filled with barely suppressed rage. Lector is horrifyingly, terrifyingly fascinating, and so sinister he takes residence in our nightmares. Yet, when Lector escapes, Starling trusts him not to come after her as his next meal because she believes Lector likes and respects her; Lector would consider eating her to be… well…rude. Why? Because he is true to himself, always. This is integrity.
I am not a fan of slasher films because most of the villains are mindless evil, have no real depth, and no understandable motivation for what they do other than the one or two lines we may or may not get during the course of the movie. The only thing that makes them scary is that they don’t stop until killed, and in the case of some, not even death has a hold—witness Jason and Freddy and other multiple-sequel slasher films. The reason we jump or have nightmares about them is because those villains are usually physically intimidating combined with the Hollywood oogada-boogada factor with a side of tension-music to assist.
Slasher villains play on primal fears—powerful, but one dimensional. They might be cunning, but they aren’t truly intelligent because they really don’t have a personality other than their hunger for blood. Freddy Krueger is an exception…he has a twisted sense of humor, intelligence, and a back story, thus, Freddy has complexity, and seems more real because of those traits. In the slasher film world, however, he is an oddity.
More real because of those traits. Think on that a moment. Think on the traits I listed above. Which do you find admirable? Which do you find scary or hateful? What would happen if you took the good traits to extremes, or twisted them and eclipsed them with those you most dislike? What is the back story of that villain? What caused them to turn into monsters? What makes them get up in the morning? What drives them over the bounds of socially acceptable? What would complete their fall from grace? What would redeem them?
Would they take the redemption were it offered?
You can’t have a hero without a villain; they go hand in hand. The stronger and more vibrant the villain, the more the audience will desire the hero’s success. In short, the villain has to be just as multi-dimensional as your hero. Without that depth, the villain will stand lack-luster, and your audience won’t understand why the hero has to overcome anything. The villain wants to blow up the world and become a god-like super-being? So what? The God of Nothing still has nothing. Stupid villain. Why did I pick up this book?
That said, think carefully about your characterization of your villain. The traits make the character. The development, motivation, and execution of those traits create a believable villain who will make or break your hero’s journey. Even if it is a decent into the depths of Hell, your villain also has a journey. Don’t neglect it.
- Mood:nerdy
- Music:Halo soundtrack
I've had a few messages telling me so-and-so has added me as a friend. Okay. Who are they? Their usernames give me nothing. I go to their sites, and I get nothing helpful. I have no idea who they are (personally), and so I am reluctant to friend them in return. Is that too insular of me?
So, here is the request. If you know me personally, and you friend me on LiveJournal, please send me a heads up? Put it in your comment on one of my posts, something?
Heapfuls of thank yous.
Stef
However, that does NOT mean that Monday can take over Tuesday, or any other day of the week for that matter. Monday needs to respect every other day's boundaries, and remain on Monday, good, bad, or indifferent.
What happened, you ask? Today, Tuesday, started fairly well. I slept well, I got some stuff done this morning, showered, breakfasted, etc. All good. I packaged up a curtain rod for return because it was too short, and put it by my purse. I chased around for 20 minutes looking for thereceipt so I could return it, and finally found the receipt--right where I put it, by the way. Prepared to walk out the door. Phone rang. It was my good friend Ed calling to give me a ration of crap about having to reschedule our lunch. Had a great conversation, and he even gave me a line on a job for another friend of mine. Sent off that email...made sure I had the receipt, and walked out the door.
I get all the way to the store--I even parked--and noticed that I had forgotten the blasted curtain rod. I dropped the F-bomb, and went home. I didn't even stop to pick up the birthday and Mother's Day cards that were on my list because I was so disgusted with myself.
Some days, I believe I'd forget my head if it wasn't attached.
- Mood:
ditzy
My success has not necessarily followed as planned. Chapter 17 is coming out in pieces, none of them linear, and not even within a single scene. I spent the last two weeks distracted by everything but my writing goals: errands, chores, reading, being outside, new writing ideas, and a talk I'm supposed to give to the Boise Spec Fic group in May.
I wouldn't count that time as lost, however. The new story idea was worth it by itself. The talk I'm to give in May is about one of my favorite subjects: villains. My house is somewhat clean, and it is beautiful outside.
I've been reading Patricia McKillip's Od Magic for the last two weeks. I know, I know. What is wrong with me? The same book for two weeks? What happened to sucking one down in a day? Simply put, I can't afford to spend my entire day inhaling another writer's story, not when I have one of my own to finish. Besides, as good as McKillip is, she's like eating a Death By Chocolate cake. She's too rich to eat in one sitting. I like to savor her books exactly because language is so rich. And like that evil cake, I can only read her books ever once in awhile; they are my guilty, decadent pleasure.
I believe my next writing class starts next week, or the week after. Again, this one is from Margie Lawson. This class will be followed by the Master Class Weekend hosted by Murder in the Grove and the Popular Fiction Association of Idaho, Inc. Special guests are Bob Mayer (Novel Writer's Tools) and Margie Lawson (Deep Editing Power). www.murderinthegrove.com Thus will conclude my writing classes for the rest of the year, I think. Unless another good one comes up.
These writing classes are intense. I learn so much that is squeezes out of my ears. I've taken two now, and I still need to review what I learned from them. I'll be adding yet another class in a couple of weeks, and then the very intense master classes. I'm excited, but my brain is going to hit critical mass pretty soon.
- Mood:
content - Music:Breaking Benjamin
Winter is not the best time for me. For the past several months, I have had trouble writing. As I approached the 3/4 mark on my WIP, the words slowed, the characters stopped talking, and progress ground to a halt. Chapter 15 was a struggle. Chapter 16 was no better.
Then, Sunday came, and in a whirlwind I finished the rest of chapter 16. Moxie 4 liked it. Joyous noise. Spring as sprung, the ice has broken. The words are flowing again.
My winner's list this two-weeks includes plotting & starting chapter 17. I am hoping to get through 17 by the end of next week, in time for the next Moxie meeting. I am hopeful. I have resolve. The same winner's list also includes reviewing the lectures from the ECE class I just completed. There was so much information in those lectures that I suffered overload. I'll review through lecture 3 over the next two weeks, and talk to SM, my editing partner, about the assignments.
I've decided that I am tired of my current weight and feeling like a slug. I need to eat better; I need to move more. I spend a lot of time in front of my computer: writing, gaming, reading emails and blogs. My house is a mess (what I qualify as a mess.) I believe that if I get the blood flowing and eat the better brain foods, then my writing productivity will go up. Endorphins are a wonderful thing. My house and mood will benefit, and maybe I'll sleep more/better. I can work with that. Side benefit to that plan: smaller Stefanie! Clothes that fit better, and a thinner me looking back out of the mirror.
Today, I actually exercised! 20 minutes on the eliptical machine felt good. I didn't stress over it, I didn't push really hard. I kept a steady pace. I disengaged my brain for those minutes, let it just BE. That felt good, too. I'm in a good mood today. Perhaps the plan is already working. If the weather allows, I think I'll take the dog for a walk tomorrow. If not, I'll spend some quality time with the eliptical again. If it remains nice, I will take the laptop outside and write there for awhile in the sunshine. I'm not going to promise productivity on my WIP, but that time will be productive is other ways.
- Mood:
cheerful
I enjoyed the class, even though it was tough for me to handle sometimes. It brought to glaring light exactly what I didn't know about writing a good book. I still have a lot to learn, but at least now I have more tools to play with.
Now that class is over, I have no more excuses for not working on my WIP. I want to have the rough draft completed here pretty soon, and to do that I need to move forward on it. I've delayed chapter 16 now for a month. I can't keep doing that and get done before summer. So...the goal for this week is to complete all of chapter 16, and start on chapter 17.
I'll let y'all know how it goes. :D
However, forward progress on the book, not so much. Week before last, I wrote the first scene of Chapter 16. It had a fight scene that I thought worked. I was rather excited that I got through the whole scene almost in one sitting, and was pleased with how it turned out. Then I presented it to The Man.
His suspension of disbelief went right out the window. Disappointed, I had to agree with what he said. The fight scene wouldn't work when reviewed from a logistical perspective. Nice action...for a superhero...maybe. But not from two humans, one of whom is only 18, against 4 big guys with combat training...in an elevator no less. Nope. Won't work.
Back to the drawing board. I asked my critique partners about how to fix it at the Moxie 4 meeting we had on the 8th. The only suggestion that shows promise is to have other characters involved, ones I hadn't planned on showing up just yet. This will require a reworking of the rest of the outline for the remaining chapters. Big sigh.
I've been stewing on it for a week now, and I think I have a plan. I will need to split the first scene into two. I will have to change POVs. In fact, the entire chapter may have to center around Iain (main character), rather than bouncing to Victoria (the other main character), or to one of the other POV characters. By the end of the chapter, Iain will have gotten away from everyone who wants to "help" him, which is what needed to happen in the first place.
Lordie...the gyrations we authors have to go through to make the plan come together.
- Mood:
exhausted
I try to write deep POV: sometimes it works, other times it doesn't. What I think might be an emotional protagonist, sometimes isn't. I am hoping this class will teach me how to get into better touch with my characters. Emotion ensnares readers; an emotionally distant character will not hold the reader's interest. I want my characters--and in turn, my book--to be successful. That means engaging the reader, making them care about what happens. If they aren't engaged, they won't finish the book.
I am also hoping this class will give me a clue why some of my characters seem so emotionally distant. When I step back from them, I see the distance, and am at a loss for how to fix it most of the time. With a lot of work, and a bit of luck, I stumble upon a solution, but it takes soooo much time! Perhaps if I understand the why, I can better understand the way to not let it happen in the first place. That is the theory, anyway.
Maybe the class will tell me why I find it so much easier to write the villain, why I can write the antagonists soooo much better than the protagonists. I am cautiously optomistic on this score.
- Mood:
optimistic
I had to share this one. It made me laugh. For those that don’t know, I’m a little contrary—or ornery—at times, and this just fit. Thank you eltigreblanco.livejournal.com/ for posting it first.
"Sometimes you give the world the best you got, and you get kicked in the teeth. Give the world the best you got anyway. Success and happiness drive the assholes berzerk. That is simply a bonus."
From Ted Nugent’s Ted, White, and Blue
- Mood:
amused
Well, since its been a month since the last post, I thought I would give an update on what is going on in my life.
I have completed the online class from Margie Lawson, Defeating Self-Defeating Behaviors. Great class. I learned a lot about myself, and why I sometimes self-distruct. I now have some tools for overcoming those behaviors, most of which I have utilized at some point in the past. I will probably have to re-read the lectures and redo the assignments eventually, but for now, I think I am doing ok. I write most every day, which makes the day go better, and I have learned to think more positively.
In fact, I have overcome my fears enough to enter my current WIP into the Pacific Northwest Writer's Association Literary Contest. I edited (and edited, and edited) the first 23 pages of the manuscript (MS), and created a five page synopsis for the contest. My poor critique partners were tasked with reading it over and over while I polished it. I was a neurotic mess when I sent it off yesterday, but I feel much better now. According to my critique partners, it will be a strong contender. I'm crossing my fingers. If I final, I will have to go to the PNWA conference July 30-Aug 2, 2009. I will likely go anyway, even if I don't final. I need to get out and network more with other writers, agents, and editors. I can't write in a vacuum anymore, not if I want to be published.
Also, in the past month, I took a trip to California to attend the funeral of my cousin, Doug. Doug had spent the last 35 years as a quadriplegic, and had been in decline for the last year. He accomplished so much in his brief time here on earth: lawyer, husband, adoptive father. He found ways to overcome his disabiltiy, and gave others hope, inspiration, and direction. I celebrate his new freedom; may he now have wings.
- Mood:
hopeful - Music:A-ha: Scoundrel Days
I remember many of my dreams. I woke up this morning with this one:
I’d just been appointed Chief Commissioner of something, and the day was administration-change day. Chaos reigned. I was to live in the same place that I was to work. My office/living quarters were a huge studio apartment of probably 2000sq ft. But it was cluttered, messy, disorganized. The ancient built-in stove and kitchenette counters came up to chest height, both unusable. For a room with 20ft ceilings, hardly any of the vertical space was used. The person who used to live/work in this space hadn’t gotten anything worthwhile done. I would bring pride, organization, and an air of opportunity back to the office. I would do things, but I needed a clear place to work and live for that to be possible. I couldn’t work or live in a place this trashed.
Workmen and movers, maintenance men and the “change-over” director were everywhere at once. As I dodged them and planned overhauls of the space, I came across a series of floor-to-ceiling metal shelves in milk crate increments housing LP albums of all sorts. Thousands of albums. Much of the vinyl was separated from its sleeve and cover, and the shelves were just as disorganized as the room. Despite the mess, I got excited because the music was to stay where it was: it belonged to the office as if it was part of a private state-held collection. Some of the albums were rare treasures, but there was no ladder to get to the albums on the upper shelves.
I ignored the turmoil happening around me and gazed wonderingly at the trove before me. It should be catalogued, organized, and displayed better. The workman could build me fine wood shelves when they built my floor-to-ceiling bookshelves (complete with sliding ladders), and renovated the rest of the apartment/office. Then I could find anything and everything I wanted, and explore (and enjoy) the treasures.
Wait. Who would do the organizing and cataloguing? My new job would keep me too busy to take on such a project, and the clutter of the music collection would drive me nuts if allowed to remain as-is. Sad, I considered donating the whole collection to the local library, but knew it would be auctioned off piece by piece, or sold at a surplus sale. I didn’t want to donate it, but I couldn’t see another option because other commitments would take precedence, and this task would take too much time and effort to complete in a timely manner. It had to go, much to my regret.
I must have voiced my regret because someone piped up that the collection had already been catalogued, at some point; there was a complete list on the bottom shelf on my right. Joy and hope flooded through me. After the new shelves were built, I could get an intern or two to organize the albums on the new shelves, check them against the list, and label the shelves.
The dream unraveled soon after this point, and I woke up. As I lay there in the darkness, I wondered what it could mean. I searched for insight, and found it.
My mind and space has been cluttered with so much stuff in the past, that my writing (work) has suffered greatly, and my ability to focus on the important things hasn’t fared much better. By clearing away the clutter, I can find gems. By organizing my space, I can work and accomplish great things because I won’t be overwhelmed by trivial ‘kipple.’ By having my treasures (ideas) adequately organized and tastefully displayed, I can access the treasure when I need it or want it without fear of it being MIA.
I’ve known all these things, even tried to implement a few with limited success, before Margie Lawson’s class. My efforts in the past haven’t been focused or well supported, and I self-destructed on implementation. It is time to succeed with a better plan and more focused implementation. I know the pitfalls, so now I will try harder to avoid them. With a little help, I know I can succeed.- Mood:
rejuvenated
All of the author interviews Margie Lawson has in her lectures so far say they force themselves to write every day because they can’t wait for their muse to strike. Makes sense. Murphy’s Law #2,042 dictates that the muse will never strike when convenient, or when you want her to. It’s the corollary to the whole “watched pot” scenario, I believe.
I must have several muses because I have many good ideas pop into my head while driving, in the middle of making stirfry, while visiting with family and friends, in the shower with soapy hair and before my legs are shaved, or the all time favorite, at 3-4am when I’m supposed to be in deep sleep. I collectively call my muses “the girls in the basement.” I used to keep notebooks and mini-cassette recorders beside the bed and in the car. Murphy’s Law #516 came into play at that point: should you be ready, he/she/they will never show.
My question to you all is, when stuck at a critical point, why oh why can’t the muse(s) pop up with an idea when you desperately need it? Am I too much of a romantic to WANT the muse to ride in to save the day like some ethereal knight in shining armor and save me from the dragon? A figurative Deus Machina (sp), with/without the finger of God and hordes of avenging angels? A miracle? Or just a sudden insight like a light bulb turning on above your head? Or better yet, the trap door from Acme that suddenly appears in the wall behind you after you’ve painted yourself into a corner?
I’d beg for better timing if I thought it would do any good, but I will take the girls tossing ideas up the stairs at all hours and all situations, to them silent always.
*NOTE* Murphy’s Law numbers may vary according to website or family tradition.
- Mood:whimsical
Well, here it is the start of the New Year, and I am finally writing a new post.
Thanksgiving and Christmas went well, family time spent, and joy to be had. I also caught the cold that Starbuck (Monster #2) brought over on Christmas Day. Thanks honey, I could have done without that gift.
My New Year's resolution was unspoken; I just decided to act on it. I signed up for an online writing class with Margie Lawson: Defeat Self-Defeating Behaviors: Allow Writing Productivity and Creativity to Soar
www.writeruniv.
I've had 2 classes already, and expect a third on Tuesday. They are, so far, enlightening. I've taken several pages of notes already. Great ideas, most that I have heard or tried before, but I seem to be more receptive to them this time. Perhaps I am just ready to "hear" them. I like it. What she says makes sense. She is pushing me out of my comfort zone, which is not a bad thing, since my comfort zone has been rather insular of late. If I want to succeed as a writer, I have to overcome the obstacles I keep putting in my own path. Gee, that sounds suspiciously like personal accountability and responsibility.
But this class goes beyond the "No Excuses" shindig that I have tried in the past that just led to more self-recrimmination and brow-beating, and guilt. Hopefully, this class will help me quiet the monkey-mind that plays such a roll in my self-defeating behaviors.
Definition of monkey-mind: the voices chattering in your head which fling negative-leading questions, snide comments about your abilities, guilt, and accusations like rotten fruit. Their miasma leads to fear and disheartenment, and inaction.
Anyway, I am looking forward to meeting up with the Moxie 4 here next weekend. Its been over a month for me, with snow days, Christmas, and illness messing with our schedules. I miss them. I am going through withdrawals.
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- Mood:
amused - Music:Hoobastank: yes, that is the name of the band
The extra money would be nice. But I am conflicted. I am so close to getting this book done (I'm on chapter 14 now) that I don't want anything to interfere with its completion. A full time job would interfere significantly, even if I worked from home, because I am a work-a-holic when it comes to a paying job.
I'm not sure if it would be "always" full time, or if there would be the opportunity to work less hours when things are slow. Would the added stress of having an outside-job hurt my creative process? Would I be so brain-dead by the end of the working day that I couldn't write anything?
This worry--which isn't even a reality yet--is stressing me out.
- Mood:
anxious
So, here I am, plugging away on Chapter 13, and I have five pages of...material...when I re-read what I have so far. It's decent writing, but it is SLOW, especially when compared to Chapter 12. Going from Chapter 12 to Chapter 13 would be like hitting molasses if I left it. Besides, I'd hit a really bad transition spot.
I cut all but 3 paragraphs out of Chapter 13 and started over later in the timeline. I proceeded to write for another hour or so, and made up 2 pages. It flowed better, but I was lamenting the time I'd wasted on those cut pages, and beating myself up about not being more concise in the first place.
Then The Man called to ask about my day. I told him of my set-back. He, in turn, gave me a forehead pop. He used to write computer programs. He said most programmers write enough code to get the code to do what they want, then go back and streamline it later, make it more elegant, or correct it to make it work even better...350 lines of code can often be pared down to something like 25 lines in the finished product. So what? I lost 5 pages of work just to make the chapter flow better, advance the plot and character development, and not put my readers to sleep. Quit whining and move forward.
See what I gotta live with? The Man cuts me no slack on self-pity, the jerk, and definitely won't allow me to throw a pity-party.
Thank you to The Man for giving me the 18 year old male priority hierarchy: Survival, Sex, Stomach...the first two can change places dependant on relative intelligence and stimulus.
- Mood:
weird
Chapter 12 was rough-finished last Friday. Now, I have to blame one of my critique partners for this, because it was rough finished about 20 minutes before I hand to go to the Moxie 4 meeting which had been moved up two days by said critique partner...who shall remain nameless, but most certainly not blameless. As punishment for said crime, I "forced" both to read the chapter in its unpolished state, AND, I left them wtih a semi-cliff-hanger. Yes, yes, I am evil. I have since corrected said errors, and knocked off the rough edges. It looks better, which makes me happy. However, I think I will wait until I finish chapter 13 before I send it out.
Chapter 13 is going okay, but I have a bit of a dilemna. How do I get my protagonists either 3 blocks to the beach or 3 blocks to a church on a moderately busy street when they are both looking wounded and the worse for wear, and it's broad daylight? Understand that they are being hunted, and capture is NOT high on the priority list. They can't stay where they are, either. Would passersby even care, notice, or look twice at them? Should I just have them start walking?
There is probably a homeless popula.........Heh, heh....Thanks, folks. Got it.
- Mood:
devious
I just read a long post from The Radiance, concerning politics and policy, and history. This is why I love you, babe! See it at: ladycaviar.livejournal.com. For those who don't want to read her explanation, here it is in a nutshell: politics, n. the process of making policy. If We the People understand our history, know our rights, see what we want in the future, and are willing to speak up, theoretically, we can make a difference in the direction of our country. Even one person can make a difference.
What follows may perhaps offend...you can choose to skip it.
The executive branch of our government can't make "policy" without the help of the legislative branch, a system designed to spare us from petty tyrants, abysmal monarchs, and horrid dictators. The president can suggest policy, propose policy, but he/she can't really make it on their own unless it is part of their purview. Hell, the president can't even declare war--commander-in-chief, get it?--without Congress.
Our system was designed to give us personal rights. With those rights came the responsibility to speak up, vote, and holler when we see something in the POLICIES we didn't like. This is why I don't understand why we behave like sheep who allow ourselves to be led by media sensationalism, drivel, and misdirection without reading up and becoming informed. Instead, my fellow sheep listen to the media, and buy in to whatever the talking heads decide to present for mass consumption. They then use this dubious news as a basis for forming their opinions--to which they are all entitled--and then spout these opinions as truth without doing further research.
I can speak to this because I've done it in the past. But I'm tired of being a sheep.
In light of the presidential election coming up, for the bulk of the public, the media chooses our candidates, and about what we "should" trouble our heads. However, I believe a campaign should be about issues, and not about promises the candidates have no hope in Hell of keeping, indefinite moral character judgments, and other such BS.
I will say this: I am not happy about my choices this time around. I want to know more about actual *plans* for both energy and economic concerns. I know the president can't do much about making policy, but I would like to know what they want to propose to the legislative branch should they get lucky and achieve into office. Then I will hope and pray that they don't flip-flop on me and become the liars and cheats I believe them all to be. Yes, I am jaded.
I watched a movie once with an "honest" politician. The man said: "I am a politician. That means when I'm not kissing babies, I'm stealing their lollipops." How true. All politicians are human, therefore they will lie, cheat, steal, make deals, flip-flop, obfuscate, shuck-and-jive, and otherwise do what ever they have to in order to further their personal agendas. Sometimes those agendas are the agendas of others, sometimes not. Whatever the case, politicians as a whole are not altruistic.
I honestly do wish for a *viable* third and/or fourth party, and candidates (all of them) that spoke to issues, if for no other reason than to force the general masses to pay attention and not just go with the lesser of two evils. The candidates over the last several terms seem to have been more concerned with the "moral" character of the other candidate, and the media more interested in sensationalism and sound-bites, than with planning for the future of this country, and keeping it as the best country in which to live.
However, this would require independent thought, self-reliance, and accountability on the part of my fellow Americans, not to mention the willingness and desire to make their voices heard, no matter how small. That's not easy for sheep.
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